Vanessa's Scoliosis Story
This is my first time ever making a video, and my first time ever feeling comfortable enough to share this part about myself. I may embarrass myself, but I have hid myself my entire life and I feel like it’s my time appreciate my struggles and my triumphs. I have had a number of operations and I made a short video to break down some of them. The video may not be as in depth and informative, but I have suffered for years from depression and anxiety, that has gotten to the point where I won’t leave the house. To this day it is something I’ve been too embarassed to admit. I have had to fight for my life many times and sometimes I feel my story should be heard.
I recently found a support group @cgscoliosis for scoliosis and I wish it was something I knew of a long time ago. I have read so many stories about other girls who are in the same situation I am in or worse, and they have found light in their situation. I never used to believe in “It takes time to love yourself “ because I never thought that I would. I'm slowly learning that there is more to life than just physical beauty.
Now that I am a mother, I am my son’s inspirtation and it’s my job to show him to love everything there is about himself and about life. I may have all these imperfections, and I may not look how a “normal” female should look. But when I look at myself in the mirror, I see a warrior, and a survivor. I see myself being a fighter for my own body and that is something I admire most about myself. For the longest time, I wasn’t happy because having scoliosis made me miss out on more things than I can recount, but I’m finally able to see myself for more than what I imagined being.